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Feb. 4th, 2006 @ 06:14 pm So yeah.
I don't really use my livejournal at all anymore.
I don't really have a point to.
Not that much interesting stuff happening lately.
I have no money.
haha
That's right.


I want to go see the Veronicas at North Star.
I think I might.
Yes. I am.

I also really wanna see the rocket summer.
Yesm I do.

Ok that's all for now.
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Dec. 6th, 2005 @ 03:01 pm Goodbye..
Came across a song that describes feelings that are occuring.

"Just walk away,
and gather your thoughts for the second wave,
of this arguement on this epic, changing day,
It's crazy to think that an hour ago all things were great.
But we stand here both proud
both wrong and right,
throwing cheap shots in this stubborn fight,
and our lives are so intertwined in one,
but we're just so stuck in this moment it's clear that we're coming undone.

And you see, it's hard for me to breath, when I get all worked up with these feelings,
and I don't know exactly how it is,
that we can be so mad we consider not to exist,
when we both know there's so much love
clenched in our fists.

The goodbye waves in the driveway they just resonate,
and yes I am throwing it right back at her,
while we're drowning in rivers from our faces we just wanna know if this,
is this over?
A trembling silence fills the air,
as we stand here,
so impaired,
so aware.

I Sit in this house alone with fresh photographs,
I just can’t relax.
And like cigarette smoke,
I’m starting to choke on this,
that half of my souls on the road in a car with the girl in a dress...

And it’s making it hard for me to breathe,
When I get all worked up with these feelings,
And I don’t know exactly how it is,
That just to say I’m right,
You’re wrong,
we both lose to win.

The Goodbye waves in the driveway they just resonate,
And yes I’m throwing it right back at her,
While we’re drowning in rivers from our faces we just want know if this,
is this over?
A trembling silence fills the air as we stand here...

So hey now, maybe we’re just being stupid,
maybe we’re just being dumb,
hey, maybe it’s time that we stopped and we realize like a flag in the wind we are one
And at first it's made so pure and lovely,
but in battle can be torn to shreds,
but with time and with patience and love and affection can be fixed with needle and tread.


Because I love you!
And you love me,
And nothing will make this leave
I said,
I love you,
and you love me,
And nothing will make this leave,
So remember me,
Yeah... remember me,
Yeah. Remember me.....

And don't walk away."
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Dec. 6th, 2005 @ 02:44 pm *sigh*
"hey curt, remember that time that you were my bestest friend in the entire widest world? yeah, that's now. ♥ ♥"


The good OLD times.

"I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you"
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Dec. 5th, 2005 @ 11:37 pm Awww.....
Pand100811: aww im sorry babe
KeRoHireYo: eh i'll be ok
Pand100811: you better be i love ya too much
KeRoHireYo: awww
KeRoHireYo: that just cheered me up loads
KeRoHireYo: you have no idea


I love nick.. He always finds a way to cheer me up.
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Dec. 5th, 2005 @ 11:01 pm So now the news.
So I want to go home...
I don't know if I want to come back to La Salle.
It seems that no one likes me here anymore and the only friends I have seem to be the girls from alliance.
I mean not all of my so called friends dropped me completely, just 1 and 1/2. If that makes sense. And one was a 'best' friend.
I'm just sick of it all.
And apparently it's all my fault and I'm the one that needs to change.

I am me.
If you do not like it, then why were you my friend in the first place.
I will not change for anyone but me.
Yeah I have stuff I can work on, but I'm not going to conform to the way you want me to be.


In other news, Cirque du Soleil is coming to philadelphia. I'm so excited. It's the only thing worth while right now. It's my only true friend as it's always there to cheer me up.

I'll be driving home for christmas. fun shit.
I'm broke.
I need a boy + friend
and i need a boy that is just a friend.
I seem to not have any guy friends here.

side note: it need to start going out more.

So currently i'm watching quidam..
fun times..
i'm on the vis versa statue act.
awesomeness....

So that is basically an update of what has happened.
I've been hangin by myself and with the alliance friends.
Don't really get invited anywhere else.

Oh well.. It's life i guess.
It goes on.

"Your world is yours not mine, Quidam.
Your dreams are yours.
You may have touched the stars, but they weren't moved.
And if you reach for me, I may not choose to hold your hand.
I might smile or I might, turn away..

An ordinary man, Quidam.
I'm every man.
I'm any man.

Quidam, Quidam
La nuit recule.
D'un rêve à l'autre tu valses.
Du creux de toi
c'est bien le mal
qui dres se tes silence

There's nothing left.
There's nothing right.
There's nothing wrong.
I'm one, I'm two, I'm all yet none of you.
The truth, the lie, the tear, the laughter, the hand and the empty touch.
Here I am, alone.
Waiting for the curtain call.

An ordinary man, Quidam.
I'm every man. T'es l'inconnu.
I'm any man. T'es l'étranger.


Quidam, Quidam
La nuit recule.
D'un rêve à l'autre tu valses.
Du creux de toi
c'est bien le mal
qui dres se tes silence

Bailo en este lienzo de dolor.
Funámbulo sin mapa ni brújula.
La dulce locura mi sólo refugio.
Nazco en la sombra del payaso.

Quidam, Quidam
La nuit recule.
D'un rêve à l'autre tu valses.
Du creux de toi
c'est bien le mal
qui dresse tes silences.

Quidam, Quidam
aux rives du rêve.
Au seuil de l'ombre, tu valses.
Autour de toi
c'est bien le mal
qui dresse tes silences.

Quidam, Quidam
La nuit recule. (Aux rives du rêve)
D'un rêve à l'autre tu valses. (Au seuil de l'ombre tu valses)
Du creux de toi (Autour...)
c'est bien le mal
qui dresse tes silences."
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